Angels

Yup, I sure do.  And I call her "Mom".  She's been there for me in spirit since my battle began on August 24, 2012.

*kathy*

Peach

Peach is the new pink.  I know that breast cancer gets all the attention, but hey, we peach sisters need some love, too.  Not enough attention is given to this absolutely deadly disease.

And I may be a bit too preoccupied with uterine cancer.  (Forgive me for being too prejudiced.) Every time I see a can of peaches, or a picture of a peach, or see something with "peach" in it, my mind immediately goes to uterine cancer and its awareness.

*kathy*

Sadness

It just breaks my heart when people don't give much thought to uterine cancer, as if it's not all that important.  I remember an incident where I was asked what type of cancer I had.  I had said I had uterine cancer, and that person said, "oh, I thought it was something major."  Umm, what?  I figured all cancers were important, regardless of the type.  People die from all types of cancer all the time.  Okay, so uterine cancer is a very curable cancer (thank goodness), but it doesn't mean women don't die from it.  Geez.

*kathy*

Happiness

What is happiness?  Before last August, happiness to me meant getting a few extra dollars left over out of my check, or enjoying a day off.  But now, since my diagnosis, happiness means getting a clean bill of health...getting a day off to rest (if my energy is sapped, I really need an extra day to recuperate!)...spending time with friends and family.  Funny how your life changes after cancer.

*kathy*

Three Days

There are 3 days on the calendar that I'll never forget as long as I live and breathe:  August 24, September 19, and October 4.

August 24 is probably the worst day of my life (not including the date of my mom's death).  It was the day I hear those three words:  "you have cancer".  :-(

September 19 is the day that I finally had my hysterectomy and my health instantly got better.  :-)

October 4 is the day that Dr. Moxley told me she had gotten all of the cancer and that I was only at Stage 1a, therefore not requiring chemo or radiation.  :-)

No matter how much time has passed, those 3 dates will forever be ingrained into my mind.  :-)

*kathy*

Feelings of Confusion

It seems like I can't decide who to have feelings for.  On the one hand, there's the one guy I saw recently, after not being able to see him for almost six months (ever since he quit his job, and we were no longer co-workers).  I thought that those feelings had gone away, but they hadn't.  :-/  and there's someone else I've started to have feelings for, too.  I don't know why I like this guy.  He's brought me nothing but heartache.  But I still can't help but care about him.  :-(

Hopefully one day I'll be able to figure everything out and choose the right guy.  Until then, this sucks.

*kathy*