It's been one of those days for me emotionally. I found out a friend of mine was pregnant. While I'm happy for her, it's been hard for me accept. Every time I hear the news of a new pregnancy, it's like I've been stabbed. It hurts that bad.
It's painful to me because I know I'll never get to share that type of news with anyone. I know that I should be giving thanks that my cancer was caught early, and I'm now in remission. And I am. But this was the price I had to pay to be healthy. I don't know why I had the misfortune of being diagnosed with a cancer that usually strikes women in their 50's and 60's. I wanted kids, dammit. My own kids, not someone else. What I would give to experience what some of my friends go through, both the good and the bad. I suppose that one day I'll be able to cope with what I've been given, but right now, I'm totally not feeling it.
*kathy*
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