2013

It's now been just over 4 months since my cancer diagnosis.  Doesn't seem like it sometimes.  It feels like it just happened yesterday.  I especially felt on New Year's Eve.  Why on New Year's Eve?  It was the 3rd anniversary of my mother's death.  When I received the news of the cancer, she was the very first person I thought of to tell.  I wanted so much to hug her!!  I felt so lost without her.  Sure, I had the support of my family and friends, but there is nothing--nothing!--like the love and support of a mother.  And it hurt knowing that she couldn't hold me in her arms and tell me that everything was gonna be okay, because I was tough.  I would have given my right arm to have her here.  :-(  I ended up with early-stage cancer, thankfully, but still, at the time I didn't know what was going to happen to me.  But I start to think about it, my mother was there for me.  She was my guardian angel.  And I can't imagine anything better than that.

Happy 2013!!

*kathy*