It's been said that after a woman has a hysterectomy, she doesn't feel complete, that no one will want her. I always thought this was an exaggeration, but after my ordeal, I have found that it wasn't one after all. :-( I always had hope that I would settle down and have kids (not necessarily getting married, mind you). I even had names picked out if I ever got lucky and became pregnant. But when my oncologist told me that I would need a radical hysterectomy (even the ovaries couldn't be saved), I cried. I truly cried. I felt like my one chance at happiness was gone in that one moment. :-( Most guys my age want to settle down and have a child or two. And I can't give him that. There's really nothing I can offer. :-/ Honestly, who would want to be with someone who can't produce? The questions about "when are you two gonna have a baby?" are bound to annoy him sooner or later, and I'm sure it would drive a wedge between us. And adoption is a no-go. It's not the same, I don't care what anyone says. It's just not. :-( I feel broken inside, and no one can put me back together. And that's just too bad.
*kathy*
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