I'm totally wishing Thursday was already here. Why? Because I'm wanting to know what stage and grade my cancer is at. I'm wondering if chemotherapy and radiation are going to be necessary. I really don't wanna have to do either one. :-/ Dr. Moxley told me that half the time, surgery is the only thing that is needed to get rid of the cancer. But what's gonna happen if I'm part of the 50% that is gonna need something else? That part scares me. I don't wanna have to require anything else. I don't wanna have to go through what my friend Susan went through when she had her breast cancer ordeal. Sometimes I wonder if the treatment is worse than the cancer. :-/ and if it turns out that I will need further treatment, I'll be out of work even longer than the 8 weeks I'm currently under. It's only been 2 weeks since I've been on medical leave, and I'm already going stir-crazy. This morning, I tested my strength by taking myself to the store and the post office. That was not the wisest of plans. My abdomen was killing me when I finally got home. The trip to the store took longer than I expected because I had to stop and rest, I had such little energy. :-( No wonder the doctor said no driving for six weeks. Ugh. I hate having cancer. It's no fun at all!! I wanted to go to my high school's homecoming game...didn't get to. I had also wanted to go to the Rangers regular-season home finale...didn't get to do that, either. :-( Like I have said, I'm hoping that the radical hysterectomy was all that I needed. I don't know how much more of this I can take. :-/
*kathy*
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