It's amazing how 24 hours can change a person and their outlook. For 2 weeks, I was sad and bummed out...on the verge of going into depression. I was angry, too. I hated the fact that I had cancer and required the need for a radical hysterectomy. I had plans for kids (one or two would have been nice), and this uterine cancer thing ruined my chances. All sorts of thoughts were running through my mind. Was I going to need chemo or radiation? Was I going to die from this? Did the cancer spread any? So many thoughts. I didn't want to think negatively, but sometimes I couldn't help it. I was going stir-crazy, not knowing the results of the testing. I even called the oncologist to see if I could get the results early, to no avail. :-/ I finally went for my follow-up on Thursday, and I got my results. When I was told that my cancer was at such a low stage I needed no further treatment, happy didn't even begin to describe it. It was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I finally knew and I could live again!!! Yay!!! People who have never been in this position could not even possibly begin to understand how I felt. I felt like I wasn't really living in those two weeks. And that probably contributed to my depression. :-( But now, I've been happy and smiling nonstop. Being told you don't need further treatment and that you are in remission does that to you. :-)
*kathy*
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