Nerves

Tomorrow I go back to see Dr. Moxley in Oklahoma City, to find out what stage and what grade my cancer is at.  I tell ya, I am quite the nervous Nellie.  :-/  Yeah, after surgery, she told me that she thinks they got it all, and it is not likely I'll need any chemotherapy or radiation.  But I have to admit, I'm scared that it's more widespread than she thought.  I am due to go back to work the middle of November.  If any other treatment is necessary, that means I can't go back to work just yet.  And that would be extremely disappointing.  I love what I do and the people I work with.  It's only been 2 weeks, and I'm already going nuts.  I hate being stuck at home.  I am an independent spirit, so this is new territory for me.  :-/  I've had a lot of time to think, and I'm tired of having to ask people to come see me.  I have had one person come see me since Saturday.  So yeah, I'm bummed, and you can see why I'm anxious to return to work.  I'd be around people.  Bleh.  :-/  I hate to be negative, but this damn cancer has me depressed.  And I still don't feel like a complete woman.  :-/  Gotta learn to get past that...surely there's a guy out there that will love me no matter what.

*Kathy*