It's hard to believe that it's more than a month now since the hysterectomy. At times it seems like it happened yesterday, and then there are times that it seems like so long ago. I've had my ups and downs, both pain-wise and emotionally. There are days that I can barely move, and there are days where I feel like I can do jumping jacks. (Though I don't attempt to do those. I am not that crazy.) And my emotions? Psshh. They make me feel like I'm on a roller coaster. At times I am happy, that there's nothing wrong. But there are also times where I'm sad, lonely, and depressed. I'm angry that I got diagnosed with cancer and that I needed my hysterectomy. I wanted kids, dammit, and now I couldn't have that. It seemed like one cruel joke, and it wasn't funny at all.
But I suppose that's how life goes, sometimes. I'm reminded of a phrase I saw on Twitter once: "if God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it." That's what gets me through all of this, not to mention the love and support of my family and friends. I couldn't ask for a better group of people.
*kathy*
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